Who I am (19-08-21)
O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue,
you know it completely, O Lord.
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
(Psalm 139:1-4; 23-24)
I have recently completed the outstanding repair of my record deck.
This has involved surfing the internet for replacement belts for the motor and turntable, replacement pre-amp and cartridge (needle!) for the arm. The deck was constructed during the 1970s by my father, using components sourced by me, and I am reluctant to replace it with a new purchase.
On Monday evening, it was put into action as I caught up with Diana Ross, the Eagles and O’Jays on vinyl. Of course, I can still listen to these songs using touch screen and head-phones on my mobile devices, but it’s not the same as a room filled with music.
The music and hi fi took me back to my mood and feelings during my years growing up, a part of me which no one else knows. It was like meeting an old school friend after a long absence.
God knows who we are. He knows the depth of our very being, everything there is to know about us. He created us in his own image, He accompanies us everywhere. He is ever present.
We cannot hide anything from God. He sees into our thoughts and into our feelings. When we contemplate our temptations and weaknesses, he already knows about them.
Yet in spite of what we think and know of ourselves, God loves us unconditionally.
Whatever He thinks of our behaviour, He graciously calls us into a close personal relationship with himself. Just as we are.
No need for a new model. The old version will be just fine (with a few suggestions for future improvement).
Heavenly Father, thank you for loving us as your children, in spite of what you know about us.
Help us to give our lives in service to you, confident in the knowledge that you are always with us and within us.